Musings in Oblivion

I certianly hope my dreams aren't prophetic...

Started out that I was organizing my music (I've been doing a bit much of that lately hence it was in my dream... sorta like the times i've had IM conversations or was playing minesweeper in my dreams....), and then I was at work (not my real job, but at some sort of important tecnological facility (dunno what really), and I was working on some program, and I made this change... Next thing you know, the secondary reactor was exploding, which in turn set off the main reactor, and everyone is evacuating the place, as it goes up in a big column of light. Oops? So somehow I had a copy of the code I had submitted, and showed it to my bf and he takes one look and was like, yeah, that and that are wrong. Well, damn, I just destroyed the really important technological facility that we couldn't rebuild apparently. Really hope that part isn't prophetic, eh?

But by the end of the dream, there's hope... Right before I wake up, the transformers show up and we decide to try to travel back in time to try and stop the explosion (i.e. stop me from submitting the bad code).

So umm... make sure you get a second opinion when you're dealing with reactors. Unless you happen to have transformers as friends and can travel back in time.

Should've just stuck to organizing music.

Is sad. Dun think any NJ friends coming to party. This was one of those things we always did (well, for three years... this is 4th year), but since I moved, and no one there had taken up the party (or keeping in touch with everyone) except me, it's gotten harder and harder to keep getting together. Was gonna be a really cool party too. But now I'm sad. Very very sad. I miss them. Part of me wishes I hadn't moved. Life sorta sucks sometimes.

I miss my friends.

I like my laptop again. :) And I'm proud of myself.

I have a C610 Latitude, not a super laptop, but it does stuff and plays some of my games. :) But it made me sad, cause the screen wouldn't stay up unless it was perfectly straight and perfectly still (not good on laps, bah), and also, I broke the usb port - possibly because of the screen not staying up. And the other day the screen fell (again) and the power cord attachment got broken - so no power cord, boo. :(

But then along came... EBAY! Yay! Yay for E-bay!

Anyways, I got some new hinges, a new motherboard (!), and a new powercord (haven't gotten that yet, but soon hopefully.... shipping from Hong Kong and all...). Then I had to put them in. Enter 'take Leah's laptop apart completely'. Had to disassemble the entire screen display to attach the hinges...they go along the entire height of the screen. Did that first, and yay! No more falling screen!

Next we had the motherboard.... that was scary, but at least it came with a processor so I didn't have to worry about that much. Had to completed take apart the bottom of the laptop (without breaking it (much)), take out the motherboard, remember where everything went, and put the new one in (and hope it worked - it was sold as is, only testing done was that it booted to post). Anyways, after about an hour, some internet searching to find the one (1) single screw that holds the laptop in on the inside, and two extra screws at the end, I had a new motherboard with an unbroken USB port, yay! And better yet, it booted! Double yay!

Did get some memory errors and blue screen of death, but I rechecked the RAM and flipped the chips between slots - I think one wasn't in all the way - and I've only had 3 since then, and no blue screens!

So now my laptop is cool again, it doesn't make me yell at it anymore. :) Happy!

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Taking a page from my friend's journal, here are my results from a Keisey Temperment Sorter... Funny, a few years ago, I used to always score INFP (Healer), now this! Guess moving out and growing up does change you!

INFJ - the counselor You scored 27% I to E, 26% N to S, 23% F to T, and 36% J to P!

Your type is best summed up by the word "counselor", which belongs to the larger group of idealists. Only 2% of the population share your type. You are so empathic that you often know what others need before they know themselves. You are a complex person who can deal with complicated issues and people, almost prefer to, as you love problem solving. You can be something of an idealist or perfectionist, and should try to take yourself a little less seriously. You are a supportive and insightful romantic partner, encouraging your mate to have dreams and work hard to make those dreams come true. Because you are so creative, you have a wealth of ideas to help them toward those goals. You need harmony so much that you are driven to resolve conflict quickly, as long as the terms don't violate your ethics. You feel the most appreciated when your partner admires your creativity, trusts your inspirations, and respects your values. It is also vitally important that your partner be open and emotionally available - in other words, that they be willing to share themselves completely. Your group summary: idealists (NF) Your type summary: INFJ

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on I to E You scored higher than 99% on N to S You scored higher than 99% on F to T You scored higher than 99% on J to P

Link: The LONG Scientific Personality Test written by unpretentious2 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Ever had a dream that just put you in a weird funk all day? Not disturbing (well, not like a nightmarish way), just disturbing to your balance. I want to say it was almost an upsetting dream, but that wasn't it. It's hard to explain. And the worst thing is it just made me realize how mundane my life is. Not that I hate my life or not like it or anything. It's just... mundane. The most exciting things that have happened lately are I got a new bed, a step stool, and I'm going to a wedding. Well, there are other things, but they're all mundane. Ugh, I really can't explain. I just feel like crying though when I think about it. Didn't even want to go to work today. Just generally distracted. Anyways, sometimes dreams kinda suck. :P

I feel so weird tonight, a mix of being lonely and nostalgic. I miss my friends in NJ, and I miss my online friends, and I miss my ability to make friends. Ok, maybe I haven't lost that, but it's weird, I love meeting new interesting people, but I don't know how, and I don't know what to say. I never feel I have anything that interesting to say, or if I do, only to a point, and then I feel at a loss. Why would people be interesting in talking to someone who doesn't have anything interesting to say. I think all this moving to a new state and living along stuff is catching up. I was on myspace today on my wacky profile, and had a message from some random guy from NJ who was into anime, and maybe I shouldn't have but I wrote a note back to say hi, and it was really neat. And now I'm all like, wonder when he might write back. Ugh. And if he does, I really don't know what to say anyway, especially since he probably thinks I'm a ditzy, anime, neko-girl freak, who likes pink and cutesy stuff, and can't spell and all kinds of other stuff. And we all know I hate pink and can (usually) spell. Heh, but still, I don't know, I just feel weird. I miss seeing my friends, and having parties, and chatting online to random interesting people, and all the stuff I used to do. Stupid, eh? Oh well. That's me, as usual.

I knwo I haven't posted in ages, but that's been due to relocating and having no internet nor time. One of these days I'll post some of the stuff I've been up to, but for now, I finally did the song meme I stole from a friend. Basically you put all your music on your ipod/computer/or I guess whatever, on shuffle and then fill in each question with the next song. Most of it makes no sense, but you sometimes get a gem. :) Anyways, enjoy, or not. :)

((Slightly annotated...))

How am I feeling today?
Now That I've Found You - mytown
Aww, sweet...

Will I get far in life?
Dancing Queen - abba
Sweet, I'm gonna be a dancing queen!!

How do my friends see me?
With Arms Wide Open - Creed
Aww, how sweet... :)

Where will I get married?
Gonna Fall Reaching - Beautiful Girl Soundtrack
This is disturbing - apparently I'm going to get married on a cliff, and fall off while reaching for my new husband...

What is my best friend's theme song?
The Sopranos - Dennis Miller
Well, I suppose she'd like to be part of the mob...

What is the story of my life?
Ebudae - Enya
What's this song about anyway???

What is/was highschool like?
Bad Reputation - Joan Jett
Umm? I was the good student!

How can I get ahead in life?
Marian - Robin Hood, Men in Tights
Being helpless and waiting for a man to come rescue me apparently.

What is the best thing about me?
When I Need You - Leo Sayer
I'm there when you need me, yay!

How is today going to be?
Angel - Shaggy
I'm going to get appreciated by my bf for being there when he's in the slammer?

What is in store for this weekend?
Everlasting Gobstoppers/Oompa Loompa - Willy Wonka
YAY, CANDY!!!

What song describes my parents?
No More Words - Inu Yasha
Hmm... well, they don't talk much...

What song describes my grandparents
Brisco County, Jr. Theme
Yes, they're from the wild wild west! Haha!

How is my life going?
Just What I Need - Rufus King
Guess that's good, eh?

What song will they play at my funeral?
The Overture from Cinderella (with Lesley Ann Warren)
Hope this means I marry a millionaire or prince or something...

How does the world see me?
We Are Family - Sister Sledge
Yay! I'm family with the whole world!

Will I have a happy life?
Bad Moon Rising - Creedance Clearwater Revival
Hmm.... not promissing at all.

What do my friends really think of me?
Ain't That Unusual - Goo Goo Dolls
They think I'm unusual? Hmm, so do I. :)

Do people secretly lust after me?
King of New York - Newsies
Only the King of NY does...

What should I do with my life?
Looking For Love in All the Wrong Places - Johnny Lee
Bars, Porn Shops, here I come!

Will I ever have children?
Bad Magic Day - Owlflight (Mercedes Lackey)
Apparently if I do, it'll only be after lots of trying and mistakes on the way...

What is some good advice?
Hidarite no Kioku; Memories of the Left Hand - Fushigi Yuugi
Mitsukake's song
Remember my left hand??

What is my signature dancing song?
You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson
But... I only dance when I'm alone!

What do I think my current theme song is?
Fellowship Going South - Julia Ecklar
Yay, an adventure, we're going on an adventure Charlie...

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Don't Feel Like Cryin' - Abra Moore
Oh, they think I'm over something!

What type of men/women do you like?
Rainbow Brite (Techno Remix) Theme
Very colorful people apparently. :)

I downloaded a cellphone game called Zuma a few days ago. When I beat the last stage of level three, I got the following message. I'm not sure if th e game was written in another language or if they were just trying to get the 'all your base are belong to us' feel. But the text is still funny. :) I can't wait to see what happens when I beat level 6.

Interloper of puny! You suppose the secret of Zuma it is posible to take the knowing so easily? No! There is defect for your thinking! Our cryptic hidden nature cannot be discovered so directly. Three shrines protect method! Never you will strike past them! Ribbit.

Thanks to Helene.... I'd like to think this is reasonable accurate. Seems to fit me the best of them. :)

I took the "The Aura Color Personality" quiz on gURL.com
		My aura is... blue Are you blue? No worries--having a blue aura does not condemn one to a life of sorrow. But those with blue auras are some of the most emotional people on the planet. Blues are quite sensitive to other people's feelings... Read more... What color is your aura?

I just gave my two week notice yesterday, yay! After March 31st, I'm free! At least until I get a contract with my new job. It might not have been the best idea to quit with out a definate start date, but I really can't stand that place sometimes, and things are just going to get worse, since like in the last week two other people have left. And the one, if they hadn't known I was plannign on leaving soon, I would have probably ended up with his job. Ugh ugh ugh. But no more! No more releases, no more petty rules, no more horrible commute, yay! Only 10 more days! :) Yay yay! Going to celebrate tonight! :)

Your Candy Heart Says "First Kiss"

You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship. You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you Your flirting style: friendly and sweet What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive

I am a ( ... )

I'm really really pissed at a friend of mine right now.... Last Friday, we'd all talked and planned a party for this Saturday. So today, I call her up, to check times and stuff... and she's just like, 'No, we decided not to have a party. We dont' really like Valentine's Day and don't want to have one." Umm.... so I even manage to ask her why she didn't say something on Friday, eh? "Oh, we didn't know what we were doing until yesterday." Ok, because you HADN'T already made plans with your friends to have a party, nope, didn't know what you were doing. So I just had to say bye to her before I got upset....and I had to call the other people and let THEM know there was no party. My question is.... why didn't she ACTIVELY call me (or anyone else) YESTERDAY, since they decided there was no party YESTERDAY?? As my (good, considerate, in fact best) friend quoted from The Wedding Singer: "Once again, things that could have been brought to my attention YESTERDAY!" Indeed. You know, I felt bad before about being out of town the weekend of her birthday, and missing the party, so we made it up to her by surprising her with dinner at the Olive Garden. But now I don't feel so bad. And I was going to ask her if she and her bf wanted to go with me and my bf (who incidentally was coming into town this weekend for the party... if there wasn't going to be a party, I would have probably gone down there to spend Valentine's Day with him.... But since we were planning to have a party.......... ARGH!) to karaoke on Friday... but now I really don't want to hang out with her. F*** her. I don't need this kind of crap from so-called friends.

Sam Goody was havng a store-closing sale so i stopped in and ended up buying The Fantastic 4 soundtrac and Practical Magic. i've been listening to the former and trac 11 came up... Surrender... so i start singng along "Mother told me yes she told me i'd meet girls like you, she also told me stay away,you'll ne... HUH? 'She'll fall in love with you???!?!?!?" WTF?? Simple Plan changed the words of an awesome song... ARGH! I suppose I can understand updating it for the new era...but but.... NO! Just no... Ugh.. And on a review on Amazon, some guy is like 'I've never heard this song before, but now it's one of my favorites from them'! Argh! LOL, yes, I'm being a bit overdramatic, but it's such a great Cheap Trick song... and then to hear it bastardized like that just hurts. :( And the thought of all these kids running around who've never heard the original....*shudder* Ah well, my rant for the day. :)

As some of you may know, my bf goes to karaoke weekly, and I get to join him when I'm in town. He is also the webmaster for his friends who run karaoke: http://karaoke.trenchcoatsoft.com

He's put their song database online, and I spent a couple hours tonight putting together my songlist http://karaoke.trenchcoatsoft.com/mysongs.php?u=illusia. They're songs I either want to sing, want to learn, or want to hear. :)

Leah took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Wants to make a favorable impression and be recogn..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut

You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun. You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life... Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut. To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions.

Hard to believe, but....

The True Survivor You scored 63 % ass-kickingness, 75% leadership, and 75% scavenging ability!

Congratulations, you scored the highest in all three categories: ass-kickingness, leadership, and scavenging skills. You are definitely going to survive the Apocalypse. Your abilites to lead others, fight in wars without any reservations, and contribute positively to the group by finding food and helping to build shelter are unmatched. You were made for this kind of shit!

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 37% on ass-kickingness You scored higher than 26% on leadership You scored higher than 31% on scavenging

Link: The CouldYouSurvive the Apocalypse Test written by KatetheBrave on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Alright - let's see if i can do this without repeating anyone's that i've read and without certain >|eys on my >|eyboard wor>|ing.

Name 5 of life's simple pleasures that you like the most. Try to be creative and original and not to use things that someone else has already used. Tag 5 on your list.

1. Singing
2. Reading
3. Playing games with friends
4. Breathing fresh air
5. Using your beloved to warm up